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Hi everyone I'm French...oups...
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So,Nice to meet y'all...
  
  I know it's certainly not a good point but I'm a French dude and I'm living in the grand south beside the Mediterranean Sea, I'm 45 year old and my passion since I'm a teen's kid, are drugs...risks in...d...and sports(I know that's paradoxical but I've been bachelor when I was 16teen's and after a long run in Europe and Berlin just for the wall's events with my first socio political conscious taken hardly with the group I joined and with the revolted Berliners...an unforgettable experience!!!)  and the too rare extreme sport's practices all along my life and teenage years during which i was extremely practicing and I was Olympic "hope" (as we say here)  in my category in swimming competitions and karate but not with an Olympian level, football, tennis, baseball(just few months)and SKI, velo and long walk in the nature with my parents every time I was free of others sport's obligations(...a lot and lot's of stage and performance for my City's Swimming Club, and not a free hour but one weekend on two generally and on the Sundays essentially!!!)(after I've jumped from planes four times, bridges two times, and trying each kinda possibilities I've had in extreme sports...but very expensive!!!The only thing's I wanna do before I'm dead would be the based jump, but I'm far from that physical and financial possibility by now...I cross my fingers...amen)
 ...to continue even if I'm bad and fully(a bit initiated...a BIT I SAID!!!) ignorant with Chemistry I love learning and I'm reading all daytime everyday cause I'm jobless by choice!!!
   I can have a very strong character but if I'm not victim of aggressions, I'm very sociable and love to exchange ideas and opinions but after a rapid look to the forum I'm afraid to be useless in Chemistry but for practice in 30 years I tried about everything but RCs(even if in the 90's beginning, we were too much unawares but we have all been unconscious RC's consumer's during all free-parties I've made and managed everywhere in this world (evidently that's just an image) we've travelled a lot during my post bachelor's years, with Berlin first and after my psychologist studies  and even though during my cursus or my whole University's years I also travelled with my principal professor complicity cuz he liked me and we'd made a simple deal; you aren't there but for all examinations and you upgrade and get your graduation, that's how I ended my professorial grade and once in pocket I leaven in Thailand and India...etc ..1989/2004...endless trip over the world alone and much more with my lil tribe's brothers and I've known more than possibly different addictions and am now a pure retired pdychonaut because for me it's over I think I'm now turning around, spinning round with my perceptions doors and Aldous Huxley will maybe won't be ok with me but I think that outta my political libertarian idea's I'm still living strong and deeply with my association, "BLURRED", which try to open our citizens eye's closed, I'm in a kinda continuation with my old and multiple psychedelics consciousness wide opened realities assault and realisation of our society's problems. 
   And I'm nowadays still living through these realisation I took young with a lot of psyched, and I used those instantaneous moments of ego dissolution and of discovery of myself in that muddie water that's our occidental world' and its limits, ambition and destiny...with the whole planet we're still colonised by our world's part with the dark net and a lots of bio technology and the goal isn't something I wanna live but my children's   will, I'm terrified  for them and this association help me to think I'm not dead...yet, and I maybe still can do the minimum I can do...active protestation and events organization to do what I said before, trying to opened incredulous eyes!!!

  But I feel lost when I feel and observe the vast public people's majority react to the message of reality nobody's want to see!!!

I just hope I will not be boring and useless.. my weapon; a good grey area's acknowledgment I acquired with years and tears...and I'm gonna vaporized some PhP to change a little...that's a question of survivability and I can't imagine my brain's pathology without my so expensive Ritalin that I'm now buying cheap stims and I recently began to take more pyrros than ever, but still under control ..until when?

Thanks and hello reader...?
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Man im in clonazolam hell, i take about 4-5 milligrams a day and am about to go to jail for a week, but il have seizures the next day i guarantee that, im worried about dying in jail because im in seizure and i canf handle a weekwothout clonazolam put me in a seizure where i got my frost taste of brain damagage.
Any advice?
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(04-08-2018, 05:14 AM)sundaramediallc Wrote: Man im in clonazolam hell, i take about 4-5 milligrams a day and am about to go to jail for a week, but il have seizures the next day i guarantee that, im worried about dying in jail  because im in seizure and i canf  handle a weekwothout clonazolam put me in a seizure where i got my frost taste of brain damage.
Any advice?

Hello sundaramediallc nice to meet you even in those circumstances!!!

Here's my way of thinking about benzodiazepine addictions I have known   with the strongest I found when I was 18 Year Old in the streets and with a lot of Doctors. In France they may be different but I have knew RIVROTRIL, ROHYPNOL, XANAX AND EACH PRESCRIPTIONS PILLS OF THE SAME FAMILY and I can tell you the RIVROTRIL and the ROHYPNOL were the toxicomen preferred Benzos and Hypnotic!!!
I've done like the others and In my young years I even had shooted up these two principally and I was addicted with both!
I HAVE TO PRECISE THEY'RE NOW FORBIDDEN BUT WITH NEUROLOGISTS AND IMPORTANT PATHOLOGIES CAUSE THEY WERE VERY MUCH MISUSED AND IN MY CITY I COULD WALK EVERYDAY ON EMPTY BOXES AND IF THE ROHYPNOL FIRST HAVE BEEN FIRSTLY CHANGED IN ITS FORMULATION TO MAKE IT IMPOSSIBLE TO BEING SHOOTED I QUICKLY LEARNED A METHOD TO REMOVE THE KINDA OF GELATIN THEY PUTTED INTO TO IMPROVE THE MEN(and women) WHO'D WAS SHOOTING FOR IT BUT IT ONLY MADE THE WORK HARDER AND LONGER.
 FOR THE RIVROTRIL I'VE HAD THE LUCK TO DECIDE OF MY OWN WILLINGNESS TO LEAVE MY CITY FOR A SPECIFIC OPIATES REHAB IN THE DEEP NATURE THROUGH THE DEEP WOODS OF ARDECHE, ONE OF THE MOST RURAL (LAND OF SHEEP'S GROUPS (?)OF MICRO VILLAGE OR EVEN HAMEAU AS WE SAYS TO TALK ABOUT A SO LIL PLACE WHERE'S THERE'S THREE HOUSE AND A HALF...if you see what I mean...

And in one yesr alone in a real family specialised in the withdrawal of drugs or retracts and to keep you active and hardly working in reducing your substitution or/and benzodiazepines you could've been addicted.

TO GO FASTER I WILL JUST SAY THAT I FINALLY STAYED MORE THAN ONE YEAR WITH THEM PAID FOR ONLY 6 MONTHS BY THEIR ASSOCIATION "L'APRETO" IN THE GARD IN THE SOUTH OF FRANCE, AND I'VE STOPPED MORE THAN 1,4G OF MORPHINE A DAY(I could quieted with 600mgms600mgms , but to be  normal like, all that with 8mgs of SUBUTEX (Buprenorphine ) AND IT WAS A POST CURE WHEN I EVEN NEVER MADE OF CURE BEFORE...I was addicted to 5 pills of 2mgs of this RIVROTRIL and you have to know that when you stop this medication you've for minimum 3 hard months to suffer very intensely as made a friend in a PH(Psychiatric Hospital or HP in France) and I've been allowed to keep one on five for one month cuz they've sew I was yet fully intoxicated to both products and after one month to take my habits and to withdraw my morphine and this shit, working everyday from 7h30am to 6pm with a wake up at 6am to prepared the lunch of the whole family and those ogre of kids whose were eaten 3 entire breads with butter and marmalade and cereals and once over they hurried to run in class with the table full of their rest and no washing machine...and when everything was cleaned and perfectly in their place I was working all day with the meal paused, first month's I used to worked with the horseman and once detoxify I could take my tools and made what he had decided for me, always different akways hard, I was 45kgs for 1,78m(I'm now 70kgs)!!!

AND HERE'S WHAT I'VE LEARNED AND REAPPLIED LATER WHEN I HAD NEW PROBLEM BUT I STOPPED THE VALIUM(Diazepam) and PRAZEPAM, and LORMÉTRAZEPAM alone and with no difficulties or about not a lot it'd been strangely easy!!!

SO THE ONLY ADVISABLE THING I COULD TOLD YOU IS SIMPLE AND LOGICAL WAY OF WATCHING HOW DOES WORK AN ADDICTION!!!

First if you take as you'd said 4/5mgs a day of CLONAZOLAM is that you minimum needs 3/4 weeks to each week withdrawn 1 or 2mgs, depending with your perception of the difficulty you'll feel for the first mg withdrew as a first victory and a mind settlement you'll certainly keep all along your retraction because when I began to cut my last and scattered 2mgs to withdrawn in 4 weeks to make 4 parts and to retract one quarter each week more the mg of BUPRENORPHINE on 8mgs scheduled on 8 weeks I ended by realising that it'd been after the first week relatively easy in comparison with my self tried alone in my City cuz I evidently tried dozens times to stopped but with a Girl taking drugs or friends calling myself to proposed me to givens what I was dreaming each night and awoken frustrated  after a shot I even didn't have felt in a dream (that's fun how contrary with sex during a dream you can shoot up all that you want but never  feel anything when you have injected!!! A true but fair torture I think afterward, talking to you!!!)

I went to take three weeks of morphine sulfate as in the ages and I only asked a bit of methadone to my personal addiction specialist and I'm so happy to relive normally!!!

So to end my wall of text I haven't a lot more to say than to schedule a period but with really serious intention and to keep the way even when it'll be harder and I can tell you the last mg in Opiates but with benzos too is a lot more difficult to stop so after you'll known yourself enough to predict how you're risking to stopped the last mg (s) even 1 can be harder than the 2mgs previous to that last one you only will have to decide to go in the best place  with the best person(s) to really being helped  morally and physically and to be sure the person(s) could  be present and with tolerance enough to receive your eventual complaints cuz you absolutely must be in position  to talk with comprehensive  people's able to understand what you're passing  through during that  so important moment you'll be proud to have lived and passed throughout!!!

NOW ALL MY HOPE IS YOU TO HAVE TIME ENOUGH BEFORE JAIL TO SCHEDULE THIS  TIME FOR YOURSELF  AND ONLY YOURSELF!!!

Man, Im wishing you to arrive and I would be happy to have news and if you need advices or a virtual hand in this forum I'm here and as soon as I'm here I'll be ready to answer any of your doubts and hesitation and any difficulty you could've to live!!!

When I'm allowed P.M. me and I'll give you my mail with great pleasure!!!

If you are hurrying ask the direction...maybe would they made an exception...

Respect Courage and Proud you must keeps!!!

Bye Man (or...)





I had to go but since it's hurrying with jail I'm gonna try to given you something to say your Doctor or the Justice responsible of your case!!! It's not a guaranteed of success but you've to talk the good person...see you in an hour or so...a bit more but tonight!!! I promise!!!

I apologize for my late apparition after two day's out that forum's oh obligation af

Does anyone of y'all 

 who'd sawed my victim.i mean  @sundiarmedalic
Whatever he could have done im really sorry for my promise I've been in the physical impossibility
to be there but I still haven't time enough for personal reasons.But I have something to told him if he come hereuh sometimes.
I let y'all for my bled cuz I'm still sleeping...I'm back asap ...Ciao
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